It’s really beautiful. This is how I imagine Lelouch greeting me every day when I get home. No funny business, either. Doesn’t have to be sexual. When I’m gone I long for him all day. The time we spend together is beautiful. I wouldnt trade it for anything (other than the real thing, of course.)
hi! welcome to my blog ♡ lelouch lamperouge is my husband and im majoring in marine biology!
“intrusive thought” gets thrown around by assholes talking about putting strainers on their heads or stepping on a leaf who in the next sentence will say “if your thoughts are about actually hurting people they should put you in a psych ward”. compulsions and rituals get seen as proof you’re “crazy”. ocd insight CAN be delusional, even. pocd and sexual ocd is especially demonized, though even something as “harmless” (to others. not *us*) as contamination OCD is still mocked, belittled, and seen as a sign something is fundamentally wrong with you. I have seen people twice my age advocate for violence against anyone who thinks the way I’ve been forced by my mental illness to think since i was 6, maybe 7 years old.
one thing you won’t know until you experience it for yourself when you create art out of love is how it feels when people receive it with love. when you post a doodle and someone keeps it as their lockscreen, or when you write a story and someone tells you they were thinking about it all day, or when you post a poem and someone shares it with a touching caption. doesn’t matter if it was objectively good or not. matters that someone spent time with it, that someone really, really liked it, and you made it. this kind of interaction, i think, it can really sustain you for weeks. it can sustain you through a lot of terrible things. its confirmation that you exist, and that (however briefly) your existence was appreciated by someone else through your art.
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